My Resolve

July 18, 2013

More pain. More research. More anger, then acceptance, then anger. I received another distance healing session and this time felt twitching in my right ankle and the feeling of “ants” crawling in circles around my right knee. I picked out a book that had been sitting on my shelf for close to a year called Spontaneous Healing by Dr. Andrew Weil. Reading some of the stories sent shivers down my spine.  I thought back to when I’ve been sick, had a broken bone, a tooth infection and any other dis-ease I could think of and realized, it was all just temporary. My body fought off the infection, healed the broken bone and got better with time and self-care.

I’ve never been a fan of allopathic healthcare and have been made fun of by anyone outside of my woo-woo circle, even close friends, who do not share the same belief. I just don’t have faith in pumping your body full of chemicals and quick fixes, all while focusing on the symptoms and not the cause of the issue. I began researching natural alternatives to surgery, and how my body (everyone’s body, really) has the innate power to heal itself. 

And this is my resolve:

I give myself 60-days to heal. With self-love, self-care, living and working in a stress-free environment, eating foods that promote healing, a knowledgeable team of holistic healthcare providers, support of family and friends, laughter, my relationship with Richard, meditation, trust, my faith & beliefs, travel, fun, plenty of rest, yoga, exercise, physical therapy, martial arts, will and determination, I will be 100% healed by September 16, 2013. I will obtain a second MRI on this date and my acl will be completely intact and sturdy, and all other ligaments, tendons, joints, muscles, bones and fluids will be healthy and strong. 

I will return to the martial arts, my work, my relationships with others and especially with myself with enhanced balance, passion and respect. I will earn a Kensho-Do Black Belt by my 36^th birthday, July 30, 2014.