Monday, August 12, 2013

Be Like Gandhi, Be Like Gandhi, Be Like Gandhi



August 9, 2013

Poopy day! Just an all-around poopy day, mostly created by utter annoyance and feeling ignored. I woke up in pain (I think due to the PT exercises I did last night) so instead of going to see my chiropractor for my final adjustment for my shoulder, I sat at home to try to ease some of the discomfort of my knee, which didn’t help my shoulder one bit. 

After a while, I headed in to my office/dojo and made a few calls regarding my injury. I wasn’t really surprised to hear that there are some insurance “issues.” My out-of-pocket costs as of now are about $2,000, and this is just the first 30-days. I honestly thought I’d get more help from my dojo “family” (where I train, not the dojo I run with Richard – two different places – and they have been saints!). Not monetary, as that is what the insurance is supposed to be for, but a little more support. What really hurts is the person who threw me and caused the injury hasn’t even had the decency to call, message, text, send smoke signals, nothing. This entire event has put strain on both me and Richard. He worked 12-plus hour days at our school when I couldn’t even move from the couch and does my job and his on days it hurts too much for me to go in. He drives me almost everywhere, runs errands, waits on me when he’s home, and not one person from my dojo has offered to lift that off his shoulders. 

I’ve been training with these guys for 15 years and have always thought we were a close-knit pack, but I kind of think that’s what people say when everything is going smoothly. I know they care, as people ask about me each time Richard goes in to take a class, and I receive texts and calls from a few of them, but there are at least five people who were there that day who haven’t even bothered and it feels really shitty, especially when we’re all supposed to be a “family” as I’ve been told, and have always assumed. I’m starting to think my idea of support differs greatly from others.

I know for a fact that I have had a huge eye-opening experience and will absolutely be more conscious of my empathy and compassion for others. What an incredible lesson for me. And for that, I’m eternally grateful.   


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